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Apr. 15th, 2012

I think it's fair to say that depression has me in his arms again. Completely.
My depression has been steadily creeping back into my life, no matter how hard I try and divert my attentions elsewhere. I have made it so that I have something to do each night (Mon - puppy run, Tue - Beaver Scouts, Wed - puppy run, Thurs - zumba, Fri & Sat - Mark's, Sun - puppy run) just because I am incapable of being alone with my own thoughts, I even caught myself saying my old mantra before I went to sleep the other night. I never thought that I'd turn to religion again just to beg for release. I have become more involved in my faith though even though I have been told it is stupid because "where is the evidence?" and stuff but I just feel like it is something that I need back in my life right now. Help me to realise that I have got through much worse in the past and I can't allow a little hiccup to rob me of everything I have achieved thus far.

In other news:
I have an interview at a university tomorrow. Absolutely bricking it.

Writer's Block: Hand me a tissue, please.

When was the last time you cried?

Two days ago in the college elevator.

Writer's Block: Paging Al Gore

Would you give up the Internet for $10 million? (this is for the rest of your life.)


gladly

Aug. 30th, 2011

today has not been a good day

Gah at you people!

People have been saying a lot this month that I might be pregnant. Even Mark said it last night.
I AM NOT PREGNANT!
I DO NOT PLAN ON GETTING PREGNANT UNTIL I HAVE FINISHED MY EDUCATION!
I HAVE REGULAR PERIODS AND MY LAST ONE WAS 3 WEEKS AGO. THE ACHEY BOOBS, PUKING AND MOOD SWINGS I AM EXPERIENCING CANNOT BE BLAMED ON A BABY BECAUSE I HIGHLY DOUBT THAT THEY WOULD SHOW THEMSELVES AS SYMPTOMS EARLY ON IN A PREGNANCY. I HAVE LOST WEIGHT, YOU GAIN WEIGHT WHEN YOU ARE PREGNANT.

Watch, now I've voiced my rant I will not have a period this month heh.
A baby is unaffordable right now though. If by a slim percentage, and a flaw in NHS prescriptions, mean that I get pregnant then I know that money will have to be found but no. I am not pregnant.

Writer's Block: All by myself

What’s one thing that you love to do all by yourself?

Apart from the obvious?
Book shopping. I can spend hours in a book store. Honestly, I would like other people to go book shopping with but they usually get bored and tell me off. Party poopers.
I do not feel well. I do not like NHS Procedure. I want to get screened. I'm not able to. Make me older so I get accepted?

People of the internet baffle me.

Why would you like the post saying my calorie intake for the day? It isn't like worthy. And to be honest, it isn't all too great; under 1000 calories isn't a healthy thing for you to like.
-_-

Writer's Block: Get in my belly

What is your mother’s specialty dish? In other words, what food makes you salivate at the thought of it?

Spinach lasagna omnom.
Or the self-saucing chocolate pudding. hnnnnggggg